say it isn't so,

2007-01-31T11:08:00.000+08:00

hello people!

old new blog. http://knee-cold.livejournal.com/

so don't be lazy and change my link. i'm switching back to livejournal.

DON'T BE LAZY! THANK YOU LAH.

Addicted to Love

2007-01-08T02:43:00.000+08:00

maggie: what's your name?
sam: Mike.
maggie: what's your name , mike?
sam: Sam.

sam: it's not his fault. He's in love. I'm in love.
maggie: define love.
sam: why?
maggie: because you keep saying it. so define it.
sam: without it, you feel hollow inside.. empty..

maggie: When I was a kid, my father had this dog that started to get all weak and sickly. He takes it to the vet, he examines it and says a maggot must have laid eggs in the dog's butt. The baby maggots have crawled up, now they've started to grow, and eventually they're gonna eat the dog alive from the inside. He says it should be put to sleep, because it's an old dog anyway. But father won't do it. He takes the dog home, he puts it on the bed, he reaches up into the dog, picking out the maggots with his finger, one by one. It takes him all night, but he gets every last one. That dog outlived my father. That's love, Sam.

define love.

one fine day

2007-01-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

One fine day, you'll look at me
And you will know our love was, meant to be
One fine day, you're gonna want me for your girl

The arms I long for, will open wide
And you'll be proud to have me
Walkin' right by your side
One fine day
You're gonna want me for your girl

Though I know you're the kind of boy
Who only wants to run around
I'll keep waiting, and, someday darling
You'll come to me when you want to settle down
Oh

One fine day, we'll meet once more
And then you'll want the love you threw away before
One fine day, you're gonna want me for your girl
One fine day, oh
Oooh, one fine day, you're gonna want me for your girl

new year pfft.

2007-01-03T10:32:00.000+08:00

what a f-ed up new year.

thought i had a good start with a family dinner..which was really fun at swissotel merchant court food wasn't fantastic though..

then the next day ate the stupid western food at the hawker ( im not gonna trust anymore western hawkers) and ended up with food poisoning.. and fever..

so the whole of yesterday i had vomiting and fever and stomach pains.. went to the doc had to wait for 5 more ppl before me..doctor told me i couldn't eat for the whole day! now i'm just hungry like hell.. slept my fever away.. i just hate being sick.. makes your head pound.. and have body aches almost everywhere..

and i can't wait for the stupid uncle bob's to finish my house.

bee's birthday party

2006-12-29T11:10:00.000+08:00

3 tequila shots. 2 abosolut vodka shots. 3 carlsberg.

i don't even want to talk about it.

argh!

2006-12-28T02:19:00.000+08:00

thanks alex!! :D

thanks val!! :)

more and more everyday..

laugh all you want.. im not afraid..

here's my zebra crossing.

okay as you can see.. really boring day today.. stayed home till 7.. went to meet alex for dinner at coffee club at siglap.. talked cock.. then went home..

sigh another day in paradise...

oh christmas oh christmas.

2006-12-24T01:09:00.000+08:00

this years christmas sucks.. i don't even have the itsy bitsy teensy weensy little christmas spirit in me..

however, yesterday was the sports school's sec 4's christmas party at nicole seah's house.. in BISHAN! so friggin far... haha.. yup.. then lam zhi qun came over with all his brand new wham bam Xbox.. haha then everyone brought food.. too much food!
then we started watching the russell peters dvd that i brought.. really funny shit.. played pictionary..

after that i had to go home.. and all my friends were so so sweet! they decided to walk me down to get a cab! but they had fun too! ahha at first val and cheryl were in front of me.. then val screamed.. cheryl screamed then i screamed! all cos val saw the cockroaches.. then ben..to what i saw... tried to scare the cockroaches away?

haha yeah.. so the road was really empty.. so ben decided to lie right smack in the middle of the road... then nicole took a pic.. it was so fun.. oh! tim bought me a little waddler! a yellow duckling.. it's so adorable.. then i got a tampon case and purple boxers that says i got two boyfriends at the back..haha.. then cheryl got me an orange underwear! with the word wednesday in the front.. aw... haha so cute.. then sophie got me sweets and a sock. and a card.. and nicole got me this really cool vintage lookin rubber band.. haha

so i was supposed to stay over but i didn't cos i've got this dumb game that i had today which kinda pissed me off.... yeahh... so anyway after that did mani and pedi cure.. and then went to town bought clothes.. and here i am.

ok goodbye!

L word

2006-12-16T01:41:00.000+08:00

oh well, i finally watched finish season 3 of the L word.. now awaiting season 4.

sigh i'm too lazy to watch queer as folk.. it's too jumpy.. quality ain't that great..

okay so today... slept thru morning..( i hate doing that) and then.. went out with tanya and alvin and then claudine.. ate at the vilage.. went ard shopping looking for tanya and claudine's sunglasses.. then.. claudine went home.. tanya, alvin and i went to starbucks.. to sit ard a chit chat.. jielun came by later.. for abit.. then after that.. alvin the smart boy decides to make a chinese drama to tell tanya to chase after jielun and talk to him.. but i supported a little la haha..

finally it was abt 11 plus.. took 65 home.. phew lonnnng bus ride.. i have no idea how these bus drivers do it.. thenreached home at 1230! and now here i am..

you know i hardly talk abt what i do during the day.. but i am today haha..

well.. my christmas spirit is still 0%..

ahhhhh... i dun wanna play the christmas game! it's so dumb!!

all i want for christmas is to feel like it's christmas..

story of my life.

2006-12-12T15:46:00.000+08:00

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fuck.

NEW SKIN!

2006-12-11T00:02:00.000+08:00

new skin..new skin!!

hardy hardy ha ha........................................................................

and i did it all by MYSELF!!!

wooooooooooooo... i feel gooooooooooodd..

i fucking promise not to be vulgar this christmas.

about him again..

2006-11-27T19:18:00.000+08:00

since he never reads my blog i'll just say whatever i have to say here, rather than aching it all in..

why do i put myself through this? i mean.. i can't control it.. maybe i can.. maybe ive just gone crazy.. i mean amanda actually thought i was obsessed.. but im really not.. i just can't seem to forget him..

you know it's the usual thing.. where many girls are in the same boat as me..you know? you are madly in love with someone when he's with someone else..

and when you had him.. you just let him go... and then we regret.. and then.. we whine and cry and blog about it.. just like me now...

but how do you know if it's really love? i mean... love can't be explained.. i don't even know what it is anymore.. it's like.. do you just feel it? or can u see it? or.. is it both? how do you know that you're in love anyway? how do you know for sure that the person you think you are "in love" with is the one for you..

ben told me that if i actually told him that im crazy about him.. knowing he's with someone else.. it may mean i truly truly love him..

am i just too young to talk about this or what? i feel that i am too young.. and i'm making a too big a deal out of this..

i really really can't get him out of my head.. or in my heart.. or whatever.. will there ever be a second kind of you? i don't think so..

why can't everything just be okay? if i had a choice.. i would not want to make a fool of myself and feel this way.. and yet i don't want to stop thinking or loving you as well..

i sound like such an emotional piece of crap.

sometimes i wish that you wish for me..

2006-11-26T09:07:00.000+08:00

don't i look so happy?

i have no idea...

toilet toilet..

i told him again.. but he always gives this smile..
as if there's hope..

shanghai......

2006-11-16T22:44:00.000+08:00

good bye shanghai..

i always only look good in funny faced pics..

tiger.. in the middle.. oh well.. always the centre of attraction..

anton and caddy.. we made friends with his caddy.. so we got his ball.. =))

the leader board.

that's roger federer in black.. REALLY!!

luke donald and oh-so-hot brother caddy..

hexagon suite.. muah..

when i grow up.. i'll make sure i own one of these..

the most cushionest bed ever..

you see i'm taller!

SHANGHAI SHANGHAI...

vietnam trip photos..

2006-11-16T21:06:00.000+08:00

good stuff..

we absolutely love these kinds of reflections...

where are they going?? i have no clue.. that's the traffic you get in vietnam..

boredom strikes..

mother and i...

the beautiful church...

i was in a cave! tunnel! i pretended to be unafraid..haha

we made those bombs..

banana man!

that's all for vietnam!

separate ways.

2006-11-06T20:32:00.000+08:00

separate ways..

everyone is going their own separate ways.. it's unbelievable.. i will have almost no one left with to study my diploma..sophie's going to RP.. so is ben...val doesnt know..tim.. eugene.. and george or linglin.. the only people i actually sort of talk to.. i don't know who else is there...

i'm really gonna miss them.. even though i've only been in the school for 10 months or so.. it feels like forever..cos everyone here are so welcoming.. and fun loving.. and easy going.. it's going to be so different without them... no more random madness... no more singing atrociously down the hallways.. eating breakfast, lunch and dinner together even tho the food wasn't that great... the company was priceless..

i would like to dedicate a song to all of you guys who are leaving.. it's called it's so hard to say goodbye by boys II men..

i'm glad that you guys are following your heart.. and doing what you want to do... and i'm happy for all of you... i hope and pray that we will never loose touch.. thank you for every single moment that you've filled in my life in sports school..

love always...

2006-10-19T10:33:00.001+08:00

golf

2006-10-19T10:33:00.000+08:00

Rolex Golf Ad

=)

HOLE IN ONE!!

2006-10-15T21:57:00.000+08:00

I HAD A HOLE IN ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:)

2006-10-14T00:57:00.000+08:00

fri the 13th.. believe it or not.. my sister lost her handphone..

and i had a B.A.D day... altho in the afternoon i caught you me and dupree with val at causeway.. but the night was horrible.. still is..

anyway,

1. Does anyone know your password to your email?
nope..

2. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonalds?
mcspicy..

3. Are you an emotional person?
depends...when it comes to relationships not really.. i think.. i don't know... why do you care?? nobody cares abt me~~!

4. Do you like your name?
yeah not too bad.. can't imagine myself with anything else..

5. Do you believe in love at first sight?
yes but it only happens to like 2% of the people in the world.. i guess.... aha
.. just crappin
6. Ever felt jealous of your friend?
yeah tonnes of times.. especially of their looks..

7. What was the last thing you did?
answer this question.

8. Who is right next to you?
i'm hoping no one.....

9. Who was the last person you ate with?
my mom and dad.. like half an hour ago..

10. What song are you listening to right now?
zilch.

11. How's the weather right now?
it's.. normal.

12. Last person you called today?
home.

14. Last song you sang?
acoustic version of always by bon jovi.

15. Last time you danced?
while practicing..

16. Lost a friendship over something stupid?
yup.

18. Last thing you ate?
rice with pork curry some fish and some fishcake and some kinda funky lookin vege..

19. Been really depressed before?
yeah.. TAU POK!

20. Faked being sick to miss school?
YEHA. i bet teachers faked sick to miss school too.. everyone does.

21. What time did you wake up today?
6.50am =\

22. Current taste?
colgate.

23. Who is the person that posted this survey?
benjamin kheng.. who got clock out of click.

24. What are you wearing right now?
white singlet, green shorts..and a tissue stuck up my nose.

25. Are you too shy to ask anyone out?
i try not to?

26. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
their hair.

27.Where are you right now?
my room.

28. What date and day is it?
FRIDAY THE 13TH.

29. Did you go anywhere today?
yes?

30. What did you do there?
i went to a lot of theresSSS.....but i went to practice and watch a movie..
31. How old are you?
17=\ so old

33. Are you mature or immature?
both.. i can control myself..

34. Do you call your parents by their first name?
no way..

35. Are you an only child?
no..

36. Where do you go shopping?
i don't..

37. Do you like where you work?
work? what work? i don't like school though.

38. Do you like books?
yes.. i hope they like me..

song?

2006-10-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

LOVE.......................LOVE IS STRANGE.............LOT OF PEOPLE............ TAKE IT FOR A GAME...........

ONCE YOU GET IT....... YOU NEVER WANNA QUIT.......................AFTER YOU'VE HAD IT.........YOU'RE IN AN AWFUL FIX..........

MANY PEOPLE................DON'T UNDERSTAND............. THEY SAY LOVE IS MONEY IN THE HAND...............

YOUR SWEET LOVIN....... IS BETTER THAN A KISS.......... WHEN YOU LEAVE ME......... SWEET KISSES I MISS...............

HAHA BORING DAY TODAY..

baby.......... my sweeeet.. babay..... you're the one....................

if only..

2006-10-09T20:31:00.000+08:00

i was in the train this evening..
and this thought suddenly out of no where popped into my mind.

i would die for you.

cool.

2006-10-05T21:25:00.000+08:00

he loved her like there was no tomorrow.

if you had one day left..

what would you do?

i know i'd want to spend it with my family as well as you..

it's very bizzare how it's happening again and again.. are you really worth all this trouble? this phase? this agitation? this sense of madness?

here i go again..

this is not right.. somehow..

i am speaking shit.

st elmo's fire.

2006-09-27T19:22:00.000+08:00

here are some random thoughts i've been having for the past few days..

i get in and out of trains.. and i realise how sad people are.. you don't even have to ask them.. it's as if.. none of them are in love.. or look forward to going back home.. well.. maybe they think that going back home would mean another night of sleeping and then going back to work again..

i find it strange how some people can look so beautiful..and yet don't show it off. i saw this guy, he was about 20 plus years old.. in his office clothes and stuff.. he had such good features, sharp nose, nice eyes, good hair.. it seems he has it all.. but he had this frowning expression on his face.. of fatigue.. he seemed like a mean guy with that expression, maybe a bad day at work? haha but it was such a waste. even for other people.. everybody thinks abt how horrible or boring or routined their day went.. but they usually don't think about something that made them the least bit happy.. and i always wondered how almost every single person has got the same features.. eyes, nose, mouth, skin, ears etc. but still look so very very different..

and i wonder how every single day i see new kinds of people.. 4 million people in singapore.. and i see new ones everyday.. and maybe i won't know if i've seen this stranger before.. maybe i wouldn't remember.. but i wonder how long it would take me to see all 4 million faces..

how about love? when do you know you've fallen in love..? when i see a couple together holding hands.. i think.. how do you know he or she is that one person you want to spend the rest of your life with.. and does being in love necessarily mean you have to get married? or can you spend the rest of your life together without any marriage vows and still go on having children.. would that be too weird?

i think about how and why 2 people get attracted to each other.. usually you'd see them within the same standards.. i'm thin, you're thin, i'm plump, you're plump. i wear glasses, you wear glasses..

how about.. if i'm a rebel and you're a goody? is that possible? can the most notorious person fall in love with the biggest nerd?i believe what the priest in church said last saturday.. no one actually really knows you.. not even the person you've been with for 7 years.. not unless you tell them who you are.. what kind of person you are.. only you know youself well.. and it's whether you want to tell the person what kind of person you are to know if they really love you..

and my family and i did a calculation.. of how long a couple actually really know each other before they get married. let's say you are seeing this person.. you meet them about at most 15 hours a week..or more i don't know? there are 52 weeks in a year.. so that's 15 times 52 which is 780 hours..24 times 30 is 720 hours in a month.. 780 divided by 720 is abt 1. smth.. times the relationship lasting for about 3 yrs.. it would be 3 months.. so actually.. if a couple has been together for 3 years.. you've only known them for 3 months.. i think.. if my calculations are correct..so how do you know if you know that person long enough to commit?

this is me..i'm the most messiest person in the world. i doubt anyone else can beat me. i have no floor in my room to walk on. i speak without thinking sometimes.. and so i get myself embarrassed. i sometimes honestly think that i have no idea how a real relationship works..even though i have been in one or two for quite a long time.. i am very lazy.. i don't get things done until i am told over and over again. i have very very weak will power.. i get distracted and tempted very easily thus i procrastinate a lot.

but i know that i love to be around friends.. and talking about things like this.. with them.. and with my family.. how we can crack each other up so much sometimes.. but sometimes we just get on each others nerves.. i will always try to think for other people and see how they feel.. although sometimes in relationships i don't.. i am very easily amused.. and gullible as well.. i like to fight for what i am right in.. even tho sometimes i'm wrong i still want to be right..

i am a person who people can get a long with really well.. if you've met me for 5 mins.. you'll see how easy it is... or how easy i try to make it.. if i want to know you better.. i'll keep talking to you.. but if you don't want to know me.. then i'll just hold back.. i relate well with teens and adults.. but i have a problem with children.. because i can't seem to know what to do when i'm around them.. but don't get me wrong.. i still want to have them.. haha.

when i'm happy i can just go crazy.. as in seriously.. you will hear or see things that is just so ridiculous. but when i'm angry you just have to leave me alone.. because i will get angry at you if you bug me.. and i will do it unknowingly.. although you are trying to help i can't help it.. i would seem like i'm throwing my temper or venting my anger at you if i'm trying to tell you the problem.

when i'm sad.. i find someone to confide in.. i will tell you my problems and not beat around the bush.. i hate to bottle things inside me..i am that way because i have thought about committing suicide before and that just scares me.. when i'm nervous i tend to smile a lot..

sometimes i wish i could be another person.. i wish i could live a life of my particular friend.. or most of the time i wish i could look like them. i have very low self esteem.. but i don't really show it. i care about what people think of how i look like. but i know that it doesn't matter because i have a great personality to show..

i don't think i have missed out anything about myself right here.. and i don't know why i blogged about this..but i just felt like it. haha.

seeing how long this entry is, i doubt any of you would bother to read it..

tmcc

2006-09-24T20:15:00.000+08:00

sigh played shite today again.. haha.. but o welps.

lets see... went to church on yest! haha so proud of that..

liverpool won yest!! haha finally..

hmm.. have clb oral tmr.. sigh.. scary.. hope that goes well..

then.. i have.. nothing else to say..

i dono why but its getting too much...

why can't i?

2006-09-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

it's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it so tell me,

why can't i breathe whenever i think about you..

it's an itch we know we are gonna scratch but it's gonna take a while for this egg to hatch.

here we go, we're at the beginning, we haven't fucked yet but my head's spinning.......

why can't i....

have you ever thought that you would be with this person in the end.. but it just doesn't happen now.. not till it's appropriate...?

i've been thinking about it..

post- malaysia

2006-09-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

went to sch today... had a stupid CLB prelims.. so nicely sleepin in the morning.. and then a call from ms lai... SIGH.. so anyway.. did it in like 30 mins then went home..

came home..watched tv.. watched she's the man.. not until like 50mins after the show... i realised that it was so twelfth night!! haha..but it was alright i guess..

yup... that's the story of my life... my life is like no life... nothing interesting... nothing to be happy abt.. nothing to be sad abt.. just.. descriptions..

see ya.

malaysia

2006-09-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

im going malacca tmr! my first time going there!!

haha wish me gd luck gd luck gd luck gooooooooooooood lllllllllllllllluuuuuuuuuuck...!

bye!!

caddy day!

2006-09-05T22:28:00.000+08:00

i can't wait! SINGAPORE OPEN = ADAM SCOTT! :)

oooooooooo... haha... im so going to meet him.......yea yea yea... uh huh uh huh uh huh...

i caddied for ben today.. it was interesting... seeing all the pros hit their shots.. its like so easy for them... and all their accent! thai... english..scottish.. philipino.. what have you... it is soooooo diff... well obviously.. hoho..

adam adam adam!!! :)

shan hu hai

2006-09-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
the pimples ain't getting better..

2. When is the next time you will have sex?
when the time is right...
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
four!?

4. Favorite planet?
so far.. earth seems pretty gd...considering i've never seen any other..?
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
amanda ong.. aka rocky.. :p

6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone?
the only nice one is "briipp brooop.. ello moto.."

7. What kinda shirt you have on?
black spag top..
8. Describe yourself in one phrase
so old.. so innocent.. ;p
9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
havaianas/ converse?
10. Bright or Dark Room?
dark
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
my homey........
12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?
the one next to a wall..

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
asleeep..
14. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile?
so what are you doing now?
15. Where is your letter box?
ground floor
16. What's a word that you say a lot?
ya..
17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
dennis
18. Last furry thing you touched?
my dog?
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
none..
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
none?
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
13
22. Your worst enemy?
none..
23. What is your current desktop picture?
the orange sky..
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
i think there's something wrong with her..
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly?
fly...
26. Do you like someone?
no... guess not..
27. The last song you listened to?
basket case - green day
28.If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
yeah.. it's my sis man..

29. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be?
osama
30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
my right foot..

there you go...

joakims out!

2006-08-31T22:02:00.000+08:00

hello.............

this week was pretty busyy.. had staff day and the golfers danced in our oh-so-sexy colourful clothes.. mmm.. i must say we did not bad for a last minute thing.. hope the staff liked it..

let's see.. there was ms chua's surprise farewell party.. wasn't really a surprise... and before that i baked cookies with val! it was delicious.. omg.. i think i still have them.. somewhere..

oh and then we had our videography lesson.. and tim made a whole 5 page list of the words the guy was pronouncing wrongly... " we're gonna to...." he just kept saying that as if it wasn't wrong! but we shall not be mean and make fun of him.. des and tim were laughing till they teared..

and i walked in the rain today!! a whole 5 to 9 mins walk.. from the hdb estate to school.. and then i had to head to the audi which was really cold.. and then... yeah fell asleep in our old dorm room.. note "old".. err ok what else.. oh poor ben! his guitar string broke when he was performing.. imagine what could be worse than that! sigh but it was all good.. they played well.. good stuff. good stuff..

i have my new ping red bag. :)

and i have great news for myself.. lol but yeah ok!

ohh.. not forgetting.. today as i was walking out of keppel.. this good samaritan in the cab.. asked me if i wanted a lift! he's name is tin and he's from ngee ann poly.. i tell u.. u hardly find people like this in singapore.. he paid for the cabfare and we both dropped off at habourfront.. nice guy.. in case u see this TIN YOU'RE A GOOD GUY! yup. :)

oh FINALLY JOAKIM is out! you know girls.. you shouldn't be crying for him.. u shouldn't be crying for someone who wouldn't cry over you... but let's face reality ok? you girls vote for him because he is CUTE. which i just think he's above average.. but who am i to comment on that ya? haha.. ok.. but joakim you know it yourself, u had to be out long ago.. :)

ok that's it! have a great weekend!

boring......

2006-08-25T20:36:00.000+08:00

well, this week has been an okay week for me.. i mean i've had better weeks....

so yeah..can't say much really.. i don't even know why im blogging.. don't

want this to be dead i guess.. hmm let's see..

i really hope school will end very very soon... so i can dye my hair..

seriously.. i've got the URGE to.. my hair is just itching for it.. and my hair is

pretty long already.. looks just like a horse tail..

oh i met jocelyn and jon today.. she has a tattoo and i didn't even know?!

wtf? lol.. but anyway i forgot her b'day was 27th not 24th.. hehe.. forgive me..

getting a teensy bit rusty here..

im feeling not so hungry yet.. not so full... it's like i need to eat smth.. but not

too heavy..hmm wonder what it could be.. dennis should know how it feels..

hur. ok.. i guess this is a pretty pointless and boring update.. it really really

is.. i don't even know why i blog.. it's not like it's a drama series or anything

like that.. okayyyyy.....

byebye then..

you've got me wrapped around your finger.

2006-08-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

9 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY..... :)

It has been 9 months being with dennis.. "you know im such a fool for you.. you've got me wrapped around finger........" we've been through so much within these 9 months.. good.. bad.. crazy.. sadness.. happiness.. so much.. it's just unbelievable how i met someone like you.. and knowing that i met you a long long time ago makes it even more amazing..

we went to meet ben, sophie, val for movie click... it was really good.. good show for fathers and future fathers.. and then went to billy bombers.. shared a meal.. met tim.. had nice chats.. dennis couldn't really comprehend what we were sayin cause he wasn't used to the accent.. haha.. so cute..

after that we went to meet his grandparents.. i was so nervous.. but it turned out fine.. haha.. it was all good.. she said i was pretty and she said that i wasn't too thin or too fat.. lol.. there was kind of a communication problem cos she doesn't speak much english.. and er..yeah..only hokkien and malay.. but my malay's a lil rusty.. haha..but it went well! haha dennis is so respectful to his grandparents.. i hardly see that in teens.. i mean.. i never really got to see my grandparents..

i love you dennis, happy 9 months to you..

bla bla

2006-08-18T12:24:00.000+08:00

hokay! so today is the 18th of august.. happy birthday to you jielun.. AKA. AMOS. hahahahah...ok..

so, i have been in sch for the past few days.. doing videography and stuff and ben, val, me and tim are comin up with this documentary graduation thingyberhingy! its so cool.. it's gonna be the shit! we're gonna win the competition... :)

yeah so.. then..had trainings.. good job for all the guys who played.. i bet most of you didn't give up.. and that's good enough.. but keep striving!!

oh,did i mention i moved out of boarding? and so did sophie.. and valerie is going to as well... but she's stayin in next yr.. ARGHHHHH......and sophie is going to RP! why why why!!

sigh. many people have been sad lately.. i don't even noe why!
but life goes on...

im gonna change my blogskin really soon.. and the song im gonna put in.. may be quite unfamiliar to you guys.. haha ok.. that's about it..

oh and i hope i can meet dennis laterrrr......... haha love you!

bye!

rererere novation..

2006-08-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

hehe.. renovating the toilets in my house.. and my room.. gonna do bunk beds and stuff..cool.. more space..

yeap...school tmr...

i wanna dye my hair... i want i want i want.. and pierce my ears....

DENNIS: i love you and i support you of your decisions.... know that i'll always be there for you.. ok? i know we won't be seeing much of each other.. study well ok? i know you can.. you're a smart ass.. =)

thank you

2006-08-04T15:23:00.000+08:00

this is a time where i'd like to say sorry to God and thank him for everything..

i have taken him for granted..and i know it.. but i still haven't changed.. i understand all the problems im facing now in my life.. especially with my parents.. i know..sometimes they're too much.. but they mean well..

i am very remorse of what i have done.. but still patience is a virtue.. and i will be patient and do so many great things.. that will blow them away..okay so im talking and talking.. but not showing anything.. i shall stop talking and do the actions..

it seems like this world is falling apart isn't it? you fight for pride.. for your territory.. for your rights.. for your religion and beliefs.. too many innocent lives have been killed by greed, pride and selfishness.. children who have lived for only a so few years.. they have yet to see the world out there.. learn new things and achieve so much.. but they just died without even knowing the reason why.. everyone was once a child.. imagine it happen to you. every child has parents.. imagine it happen to you.. imagine if the world has missiles and warcrafts flying everywhere.. no one can control the sky but God.. i know.. God has a good reason to do everything and anything.. but it's just so so unexplainable.. what is wrong with just deciding on something by talking it out.. and even if you can't get it.. give in.. even if those suicide bombers feel that they are doing their country proud.. and it is an honour.. to protect your country and family..what's next? after you bomb that country.. that country will bomb yours.. you are putting them into even more danger.. but i guess they just don't see that.. they just see everything in their own opinion.. their own ways.. 37 children die in lebanon.. tsunami happens again..history will repeat itself.. over and over.. and no one in this world will ever be safe.. if you think you're safe here in singapore.. think again.. anything can happen if you believe in God..

what we should be fighting against now is global warming.. that is what's killing the whole earth.

i should be so lucky.. even though sometimes im not..

history gone!

2006-07-28T15:07:00.000+08:00

i just realised that my memories of my previous blogs doesn't show in my blog now...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! WHAT'S HAPPENING DENNIS ZHU?!

help me! haha... oh no.. but they're all still here.. hmm.. im so lonely in the student development centre..the rest of the world is either having pep or..sleeping.. i decided not to sleep today.. oh well.. had a sort of career guidance talk just now.. pretty cool.. i know what's gonna happen to my life.. gosh im getting pretty bored of this song in my blog.. it's time for a change.. and a change in my blog skin as well.. hehe... sorry baby.. im always asking you to do it.. i think i should try to learn.. but actually i know how.. but some blogskins are just really confusing!!

a world war 3 may be coming soon.. so do your best in everything.. make everyday productive.. and don't forget to show your loved ones how much you love them..

i love you dennis!

TGIF!!!

ok ok... update

2006-07-26T16:07:00.000+08:00

okay okay....this is an update okay?! sarah chu..cheryl lim..

haha okay.! let's see.. today was quite interesting..we went to labrador park.. it was so dirtttyyy....the beach..it was quite filthy..but not as filthy as east coast park beach.. anyway! haha..we went there with only like 6 bio students and 4 teachers! lol.. mr stanley was one of them..i tell you..all the girls are going gaga over him! haha..well yeah.. he is rather oo lala..(i hope dennis doesn't read this!)lol..jk..

yeap.. so oh! and the sea water reached my feet.. i should've worn slippers there la..my shoes were all wet...and i had a blister in my foot...and then..the salt pierced the blister...ugh.. but i heard it heals better.. haha.. so its a good thing i guess..

oh! and we got a crab from this 23 yr old guy who catches crabs for fun..gave us one of he's small crabs.. so cute.. we put it in a plastic bag..and put sea water in it..and wanted it to be our bio league pet.. but mr lee said no. but mrs soong said yes. but we decided to let it go.. it was fun while it lasted though..before we let it go..we told the crab to haunt mr lee siak chong when it dies..haha..we wanted to name it herbert jr.

in the student development centre now.. no training cos of the excursion..sigh.. can't wait till school ends..gonna do some serious things... :)

and im gonna be all alone during the holidays if i have to go for enrichment lessons.. like.. val will be back for a while then she goes to thailand.. then sophie is in england.. ben is in hong kong.. then he'll be going to thailand.. tim is in US.. richard is going to thailand... and the rest are o level students!! gggggaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! ok.. nvm better make more friends..

haha.. i love you dennis! byebye!

no promises

2006-07-22T17:50:00.000+08:00

" i don't wanna runaway baby, you're the one i need tonight..
no promises....."

should there be any promises? i do not know..but i hope that promises do last.. it's been 8 months and 3 days.. :)

so i've been bloghopping..and many friends have been talking abt friends lately.. and i think friends are the people whom you go to when everything else is lost..like your sports? studies..family..relationship..and even if it has to be with friends..there's always friends again that you can turn to.. you trust them..they trust you..although..sometimes..its not that easy..

well since nicole seah has personalized her friends so much i shall personalize mine!

nicole: you....oh you... you and ur smart little brain...please continue being the way you are..all LOUD and cheerful..sure is blessed to walk ard with you in school all the time..without you i think i'd be walking alone...especially being somewhat new and all..thank you :)

sophie: " you little cshee boiye.." haha..u crack me up everytime..although i know you wouldn't read this... cos u don't have a blog! stay the same..and hopefully i'll be schooling with you in AUT. or smth.. :)

valerie: you're the girl that always makes everyone smile..and your really BIG laughter! especially when you wanna say smth funny and laugh in between and honestly sometimes i don't get what you're sayin...haha..well, stay this way ok..don't ever change.. :)

cheryl: another smarty pants..haha..you're always easily amused by the slightest of things..and never fail to keep me company.. thanks cheryl..i enjoyed every conversation i've had with you :)

sarah: well well..my fellow bio league friend.. and math partner..haha..you and your " nicole koh! " makes me feel welcomed.. and your oddness or dead bride never fails to amuse me.. you may be different..but tt's the beauty in you.. :)

ben: haha.. ben ben ben.. it's nice to always have someone to talk to whenever i have problems..and im glad to always share my thoughts and advices with you.. :)

tim: homeyzz.... it's good to have someone like you around during training...talking abt golf..or other things.. stay the same.. "sevy?" :)

amanda: you little fucker... i hate you!! haha..tt's the feeling i always show towards you... but i really don't.. im glad you're around..if not..training would be a bore..and i would feel so by myself with all the other male golfers.. oh no! :)

haha these are the people who have kept me going in sports school... they were always there...and i hope they'll always stay in my life..

however, no promises..

MATH.

2006-07-14T12:36:00.000+08:00

in school right now..using timmy's account..well i basically don't have one..or can't be bothered to make one..im leavin the sch anyway!

so yeah stayin here for math while the rest of my friends are off to go home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh.. anyway i get to see dennis today!!!!!

weeeeeeee......

i have a surprise for him...i did it for abt 1 and half hours..he better appreciate it...he's gonna fetch me laterr...

i have no money..

and i wanna get a hamster.. :)

math time! bye!

FRANCE FRANCE FRANCE!!!

2006-07-09T19:37:00.000+08:00

FRANCE FRANCE FRANCE MUST WIN!!

i must say...altho zinedine zidane is quite old..he does seem quite appealing.. hehe..

okay.. to dennis:

thanks for everything that you've done for me..we've been through hell..and we'v been through great wonderful times.. there has been so many times where i have taken you for granted..and i have learnt my mistakes...thank you for loving me..and i know that all you want from me is my love..i just appreciate every single second that you spend with me..cooking for me..or washing the dishes..or watching the telly with me..or even if you're playing football manager and your presence is still there..i appreciate it..because i know that you'll always be there for me..
i love you.. :)

okay! pirates of the carribean! mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..johnny depp..

he's my lobster

2006-07-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s now..season one.. haha it's soo funny..phoebe is just hilarious..

see my new blogskin??! see the new song!...hahahhaa...dennis did it for me........................................................ he's so IT literate..

okay so, i heard the news is going ard abt ben and his new found one! haha..it's really sweet..and what's this abt eugene causing trouble???

anyway ive been bored to death at home.......

....

that's kinda why i have nothing else to say...

haha anyway.. u know what..when lobsters fall in love the first time..they belong to that one lobster for the rest of their life..

he's my lobster.. :)

in your eyes

2006-07-04T10:46:00.000+08:00

in your eyes,
i lost my place.

i did my surgery yesterday..so no more lump on the face...but its not like u people noticed anyway..well maybe only a few of you...

ive been given an mc of 1 week..but i think i'll go back to school today...whatever my parents want me to do while im at home is exactly the same things as i do in school..so i might as well go to school and not miss out on any lessons...its better too..cos chinese oral is comin up..and i need major practice...

i need an idol.i need my inspiration.

anyway i'll prove you wrong.

you don't know me.

2006-06-13T19:43:00.000+08:00

how come you think it's so easy... knowing that i am your own child and not giving me any support brings me no where...

ive been hurt by your words... there are so many things i want to say to you..but i can't..

when i am a parent.. i'd choose to never ever be like you.

never grow up

2006-06-08T18:21:00.000+08:00

You Are 18 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

i don't want to grow up..im too scared..
i realised im going to be 18 in 7 months..tt's really fast...too fast for me..it's kinda scary..

anyway...played abt the same as yesterday...im getting sick and tired of all this....NO MORE I TELL YOU! NO MORE!!!!

Your Love Style is Eros
For you, love is all about the passion!
And chances are, you're currently in love.
You have a strong physical response to love...
And you are great at committing
(As long as the person makes your toes curl!)
What's" Your Love Style?

oooooooooooooooooo. :)

i was so bored i started doing all this..this poppycock.

You Belong in 1976

If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

oh..and i did another one..

X men 3

2006-06-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

haha...went training..watched a movie with dennis...my menace..ahha so lame..

then..came home...had our favourite delicious chips and salsa...

then he went to play soccer and here i am!!!

haha..okay...i really think england will win..but who cares..i want them to play more so i can see steven gerard!!!

lol...

love love to dennis..

love love love..........

update

2006-06-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

hokay okay, so, here's the deal..there's been gd things and bad things happenin...

but hear this...

i'm gonna make all of you cry..

i can't say much..but only the people closest to me will know..

haha gonna watch X men 3 tmr!! i really wanna be a mutant..i think if i were to be a mutant i'll be someone who can...freeze the moment..or maybe smth else i dono..i thought of being someone who can move really fast..or be invisisble..but dennis my dearest boyfriend said it's useless...that damn buggar!!!!!!!!!!!

haha anyway..he's paying for my ticket tmr so better keep mum...

and by the way...to all those in meridian junior college...dennis is mine.

kbye!

DINNER IS SERVED.

2006-05-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

gd evening! and this was our menu for tonight.. dennis cooked black pepper steak for me..and garlic steak with a little red wine in it!(i happened to have red wine in the house.. :) ) with instant mashed potatoes, corn, brocolli and some baby carrots at the side..oh! and mushroom soup too! he's sooo sweeettt......... OH! have a closer look!

mine.........

his!!
he's such a good cook you know..and i noe nuts abt it..the only thing i did was the instant mashed potatoes...which was just to put hot water on it..
haw..................DENNIS I LOVE YOU!!
i know how to put photos in my blog already!! lalalala!!

ahem

2006-04-29T19:53:00.000+08:00

dennis is cooking mee goreng now..

i haven't done all my homework yet..

i'm having tiger day tmr..it's gonna be hectic..but yet i hope pretty fun..

i'm gonna DIE WHEN SCH STARTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DIE I TELL U!

love ya'll!!

A new beginning.

2006-04-15T14:31:00.000+08:00

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined.
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned.

Staring at the blank page before you, Open up the dirty window, Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find.

Reaching for something in the distance. So close you can almost taste it. Release your inhibitions.

Feel the rain on your skin. No one else can feel it for you. Only you can let it in. No one else, no one else. Can speak the words on your lips. Drench yourself in words unspoken. Live your life with arms wide open. Today is where your book begins. The rest is still unwritten.

Oh, oh, oh.

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines.
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way.

Staring at the blank page before you. Open up the dirty window. Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find. Reaching for something in the distance. So close you can almost taste it. Release your inner visions.

Feel the rain on your skin. No one else can feel it for you. Only you can let it in. No one else, no one else. Can speak the words on your lips. Drench yourself in words unspoken. Live your life with arms wide open. To the years where your book begins.

Feel the rain on your skin. No one else can feel it for you. Only you can let it in. No one else, no one else. Can speak the words on your lips. Drench yourself in words unspoken. Live your life with arms wide open. To the years where your book begins. The rest is still unwritten.

breathe

2006-04-14T11:37:00.000+08:00

i don't know what to do

god help me.

head over feet

2006-04-08T13:49:00.000+08:00

oh man..going crazzy..with homework..especially geography!! wth man..geog...geog ruins my life..even my chinese is better than geog..soooo screwed..

so! it's a saturday!! and yes dennis is with me now...sleeping..lol but we're gg to town later to watch failure to launch...im so excited!! im going to town!!

lol..do you know that out of 4 mths of being together dennis and i have only watched 2 movies..alone just the two of us..yeah..the rest is like with friends and all...today's gonna be the 3rd one!! yahoo..

can't wait for the one week holidays man...it's a busy busy schedule that week...yeah! then i get to fetch dennis form his school..which i have no clue where it is...but i noe it's in pasir ris..meridian jc that is..can u imagine..i feel like such a kid...im still in secondary sch while dennis is in college! and im 3 months older than him...cheh.

haha sports sch has been quite a drama...a lot of things happened..still fun as hell! and tiring..but no clue wth is goin on! well..don't reli wanna get involved anyway..LOVE MY NEW FRIENDS SOPHIE,VAL,CHERYL AND NICOLE aka. pencil queen.. mmmhmm....

okay see ya bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love uuuuuuuuuuuuuu

oh! look at this!

Your #1 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #2 Match: ENFJ

The Giver
You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.
You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

What's" Your Personality Type?

2006-03-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

oh........my...............gosh..........

it's been such a freaking longgg time...there might be a few typo errors in here...the 'r' isn't working very well..

anyway!! sports sch has been fun..i mean all the friends are cool..they're not snobbish or anything like that...i was quite afraid before i came in..but not anymore...i like them..they're great people..

5/1 from katong convent sec..i miss all of you so so much...it was great seeing some of you at the 'chalet' that day...i bet i seemed like a stranger to all of you...but i love you guys....i will not forget the 4 yrs we've spent together! so so so fun!! haha...

well dennis and i have been doing well so far so good..there has been problems but we've sorted it out..it's all good now...it's our 4th month today!!

haha time really passes damn fast...

oh OH! my swing is impoving so much..im sooo happy..and i have such a dedicated coach..which makes it soo much easier and better..

soon and i mean very very sooon...im going to put a song in my blog...dennis is going to help me...

oh and im officially the oldest student in sports sch..yes i am older than lam..altho he's like an over grown child..haha

im gonna continue this weekly update!

i love you! YOU and u AND you and you you ...eh....you too!

dennis dennis sinned sinned

2006-02-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

dennis has a 13! dennis has a 13! lalalalalaala....

he's going to a jc..jc..jc..

then he's going to a uni..uni.uni...

AND HE'S GOING TO BE A DOCTOR DOCTOR DOCTOR..

love love love love love u!

2006-01-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

im sorry but seriously... i am fucking tired

vigorous gym training in the morning like this....gosh..been i lonnnnnng time...i've never felt so weak before in my life...

okay..besides that..it was alll cool...i hope i can get more socialised with the other students in school...

dennis is gonna make a blog www.uhz-sinned.blogspot.com

but i really doubt he'll update it and all so ya. but anyway i love him so much!

tmr is a homework day for me! sucks man.

1st week

2006-01-06T23:08:00.000+08:00

1st week of sch was fast moving...a little tiring..exams and all wth first week of sch with exams..

the people there were nice..i feel like such a freshman and a nerd...

yeah my roomates are nice..the girls are nice..the guys are alright...they cut queue and all..especially at the bookshop...

gonna spend time with dennis tmr!!! looooovvvveee dennis!

bye.

6

2005-12-20T00:45:00.000+08:00

6 points.

thanks to everyone who have supported me in every way..

happy one month dennis :)

thanks for the rose. very unexpected... and i can't wait for christmas!

love u dennis!

byebye.

2005-12-18T00:14:00.000+08:00

today i went out with dennis..the boy...we went to eat carls jr. yumm. then after that we went..back to his house to see yr books..then went to church..then went to parkway..he had a craving for ohluak.? ok..then we went to slack a lil at mccafe..it was soooo cold...

yes wearing a grey long sleeved mickey mouse top with shorts...cold cold..

tmr tmr!!

i love dennissssssssssssssssss!!!

byebye!

let me put on a show.

2005-12-13T16:16:00.000+08:00

next year will be the year.

i am going to show every single one of you.

especially, you.

for those who have helped me...thank you so much.

hosanna in the highest.

always

2005-12-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

today today..well it was alright..sort of a lazy day..i ate so much...my gawd.

and tmr i have a health screening at SSS..hmm...i hope i still have my stamina and that i grew taller lol..

so the plan is go for screening..then home change guitar then practice..

next week is the SICC..hmm hopefully i'll play below 82! i'll pray to God..

im actually waiting to go to sports school next yr..hoping..

yes there will be friends i'll miss..you people i'll remember always..and there's still my one and only dennis..whom i will miss as well..but..you know..im still in singapore..so it's alright.

i think dennis zhu fell asleep..well it's ok then..

i want an ipod and a new nice flip phone..doesn't need to be the razor..i just want a new flip phone..

gosh i sound so materialistic..lol

there's still a little bit of your taste, in my lips...

sigh...

2005-11-26T00:25:00.003+08:00

i really really really...just..aiyo.

hahaha..

=))

well you should know...

anyway congratss to allllll who have finished their o's..

the future is in your hands now.

muahahhaa.

:)

2005-11-20T01:25:00.000+08:00

for you, my heart.

the date!

2005-11-19T03:06:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is THE day...

im so excited..it's 3am and i wanna sleep hahaha..

ok well just fooling around here..still working part time..went to shanghai bla bla bla..

i saw nick dougherty's caddy's shoes..! so damn freakin hell nice.

ok then i bought a new belt! it's a big buckled one..it's a shape of a woman..lying down..very seductively..

and i bought new earrings!

and i still can't decide on what to wear..

you noe usually i wouldn't bother..like i didn't for the rest..but for him it's so different..it's more...i dono..im more cautious..and feel like it's so much more fragile..

sigh..we've been waiting for this day for so long...the 10 hours seems so long to come.. right?

i'll tell ya'll the rest tmr!

gd moight!

work.krow

2005-10-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

okay! last day of sch!!! i started work today..well i saw the good side of the boss..but i heard he can be pretty rough so im still gonna be a lil scared when i go back...ahh..

prefects meeting tmr..hm..then work..then nikhy's party...haha then for the rest of the hols..its busy busy days!! haha..well...at least im doing productive things..

i earned 30 dollars today! hahahah..

now..im soo going to sleep la..tired..

you know i realise..my blogs are so freakin boring, and i bet nobody is reading this.

kbye.

i found a partner. a unique one.

2005-10-24T23:30:00.000+08:00

well today i didn't go to school, i went to parkway to pay my guitar fees..then i met dennis to return him his pics..then i went to meet mom at tampines again to eat dinner..

can someone teach me how to put pics in blogs??

i would just like to say that i found a person i can practice with.

;)

okay! im off to bed now!!

byebye!

kindergarten friend!

2005-10-22T12:40:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY!! I MET DENNIS! MY KINDERGARTEN FRIEND!! HAHA I WAS SO AMAZED AND HAPPY!!!

i met him at vjc..at the national colours.. of all the places! haah...so cool..11 yrs...he's the only one i found..well actually..i only remember 2..my best friend sally and him..haha..and i found him! didn't find sally yet..

well going out today! haha..then youth mass haha..omg.. i put on soo much weight from last yr oct to this yr ok.. see my pics in friendster and you'll noe. i looked so much better then..even with short hair!! argh! nvm. haha grow taller!

croatia rhapsody/cubana

2005-10-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

listening to the croatia rhapsody from maksim now..so cool..so reminds me of tsunami and stuff..sad.

today today...i did the flag raising..somehow i did it slower than usual..hmm? okay then..had lessons..watched lady hawke during ms chai's 5 periods i think..or .4..well anways went to train then...went to meet mrs koh at tampines..mommy was 40 mins late to meet me. =\ nvm la. whats new?? oh so while waiting i saw 18 ppl wore pink..20 ppl wore blue..5 ppl wore brown..4 ppl wore yellow..no one wore purple..so disappointing! except the mrt workers la.but they're not counted =\

okay, er tmr going for national colours! yay get to see the asean team again..kinda miss them especially jerome!! mr smiley lol..

then then hopefully i can go to the doctor to see what's wrong with my face after that....

sat! going job shopping with sissy and then youth mass. set lah.

mirror mirror on the wall

2005-10-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

okay, sunday was golf as usual..then yesterday was a whacked day i tell you..

well not really but...i walked into a mirror..in the fitting room of fourskins at annex heeren! cos the fitting had nice purple and black fluffy walls...and i didn't know there was a mirror so somehow i didn't see my own reflection that..you know..i bumped into it and knocked my head..and i think the sales guy saw..but luckily it wasn't the hot one..

okay well today in sch 11 people were absent..not just one or two...11! so there was 23 girls in class..and we had lessons which was boring..tmr im going to the art museum during. ART! 4 periods! wow. ok.

okay. i found the root of my problem on why the guys i like don't like me.

im too insensitive and friendly........

from now on.im a changed girl. ;)

kbye!

drops of jupiter

2005-10-15T13:01:00.000+08:00

these are the usual days..well, i went to town! lol. finally..i went there quite a few times already actually i think this week i went about 3 times..kinda boring..so yeah. going back to the range and all.

i've been hooked by the 1 yr and 4 mths of true love, but! now i just couldn't care less, whatever already... i'll let serendipity work it's ways..

im going to fold clothes now!!

byebye!

daddy? lol

2005-10-10T23:25:00.000+08:00

well i spent the whollllllle day at gleneagles hospital! lol my dad went for his operation..then right..i was so sleepy i kept sleeping on the floor..my dad was so tired and blur. lol

he said the nurses kept quarrelling then shook his head haha so funny..so i was talking with my family..and u noe being me..i made a random weird face, and he said i look like my grandma..lol

okay! know what im so lazy to blog! lol. okay..er..what else..well i sat on the floor and slept..er...that's about it la..haha

there's no one now.

must get out.

exams?????

2005-10-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

MY GCE N LEVELS ARE OVER, OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

IT'S LIKE AN EXPLOSION OF LIKE RIBBONS, LOLIPOPS, RAINBOWS, POTATOES AND GOLF BALLS!!.

=))))))))))))

20 quotes?

2005-10-05T14:01:00.000+08:00

ok today was a little bit happening, because firstly my friend wanting was so sick she couldn't do the paper! she was so pale..and mrs leong carried her and wanting grabbed her to tightly..and her legs were like dragging..she was so weak..i think she almost fainted. i hope its not dengue. =\

yes so then danielle had menstrual cramps in paper 2. oh boy, she gave up but she at least she wrote some stuff..thank goodness..and guess what! in paper 1 i managed to put in 20 quotes for one question and the unseen poem? NOT UNSEEN! haha ms chai went thru that poem with us before.how lucky she even told us it was a fluke haha she just picked it out frm the text. hehe. yay, but paper 2 was a little bit of a horror not what we expected. no malvolio or orsino. olivia and viola! ergh i hate those women!

then i shared a cab home with danielle, and when i was walking home a black cat with brown spots almost crossed my path but! i tried to walk before it did..and then it bumped into my leg.. so it started following me..and it followed me into the lift. and followed me to my door step..so i opened the gate and it went in! then i was too scared to open the door cos my dog is in the house..so i carried the cat outside and closed the gate but it went thru the squares of the gate..the cat kept rubbing itself on my legs..it felt..sooo..fury. haha. yeah then my dog made noise and the cat moved aside and i opened the door and i quickly went in..and the cat stayed there for awhile then it went off..actually i don't think my dog would have bitten the cat or anything cos he's never seen a cat before..so i think my dog would have been afraid of it.

well anyway, i need to study science and do my art! but i feel like watching joy luck club. ergh. ok. im going for mass with wes later. i.d.k.i.j.i.c. hmm bye!

exam days

2005-10-04T16:52:00.000+08:00

ok.ok. haha maths paper 1 was easy!
lol i was laughing after the paper. but i better not be too cocky. well i just found out i had 3 wrong anyway.

geography?? anything that was in that bloody paper the ms S..... did not teach us ok. wth is an average gradient?????

well haha ok bio chem lit maths paper 2! and art.wow it's actually quite a lot more. hahahaha..
i wrote another letter to M.M! lol haha i hope she answers them..i really need them to be answered badly..sigh i hope she does.

ok. now....... im gonna do my art and all that shit. so yeah.

you know the fact that im not good looking doesn't really bother me, because i mean, i wouldn't care if the guy who is in fact gd looking doesn't think i'm pretty or smth. because i know myself, that i have a great personality..and that's what matters most. i love my character and i wouldn't wanna change it at all..

well, i just spoke my mind. lol but it's not relevant to anything tt is happening in my life now. lol

ok bye!

$2000?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

2005-09-30T16:22:00.000+08:00

okay so i know this is singapore and all but seriously....

my dad has a freakin heart problem man..it's his heart..a heart is an organ that makes sure that u're still alive if it's pumping right?? so say the arteries have been blocked a little i mean my father's life is on the line now...and no we are not rich and u are telling my father that he can only take out 2000 dollars frm his medisave..when he has 32000 in it?????? and the operation costs wayyyyyyyyy over 2000! i know he's not the only one in singapore that is in this situation..but it's his life...i don't get it...when is it then okay to take out more to pay for his operation?? when? when he's in his deathbed when the medical bills are higher??

he is the one that feeds us..puts food on the table..makes sure we have beds to slp in and everything..even this computer im using he has paid for..i seriously don't know what singapore is doing. i don't im only 16 what can i do right?

anyway im so freakin slacking i need to study now.

bye.

jealousy is killing me.......

2005-09-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

study break frm tmr onwards babeh.!

hahaha but i need serious study i sort of slacked abit
but still doing maths and all, science omg...how?? sure gonner!!

today was really a very lethargic day dont noe why...i was doing maths so nicely for 2 periods and then i fell asleep...then my friends kept laughing at me! well as usual i think they laughed cos the pencil was still in my hand.

someone is holding me back..is it my choice to let go? or should i just not do anything? do i just continue? or just loose everything?

god help me,

tiger woods?

2005-09-23T22:27:00.000+08:00

well well...

TANYA WON THE HSBC CHALLENGE.

YOU KNOW WHAT IT MEANS?

IT MEANS THAT SHE GET A BOARDING PASS TO SHANGHAI TO SEE TIGER WOODS.

AND GUESS WHAT?

SHE GETS TO BRING A PARTNER.

AND GUESS WHAT?

THE PARTNER IS ME.

hurrrrrrrraaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

we believe

2005-09-20T15:36:00.000+08:00

i just felt that i have suddenly slacken in my studies.im actually really worried.im banging on english lit and art..as usual..but i just wanna pass the rest as well..i don't really have much to say..oh claudia's birthday..we're always doing smth special for her noe...i tell u solemnly! someone has to do smth for me one day!

hmm youth mass this saturday..should i or shouldn't i? you know what i hate most..i hate that my complexion of my face just sucks..as in seriously...im not being modest or low self esteemed or anything...im being realistic..i need to do smth abt it man..it's gonna get worse once i go to leonard drake..but then my sis went it got worse for awhile..then it totally improved like alot i tell u..that's y my mom already promised me..so im going uh huh uh huh uh huh~~~

i was thinking on my way home what i should wear for christmas..lol! i seriously can't wait!im certainly keeping my long hair already..maybe just a few trims here and there...i really like sleeping with long hair..kinda keeps ur neck warm...lol..i wore a black racer top..with a three quarter bottom.with my whoa short hair..i like used wax to spike all yeah look very punk..but anyway! i wanna have a diff style this yr.."style" sia..what only. lol ok then how...ok exams first exams first!

actually..sometimes i don't get girls..
21 sketches 4 more to go..

20 september 2005

not the end of the world.

2005-09-17T23:55:00.000+08:00

this is for myself,
am i going to let one person make me so miserable? but they're feelings how do you stop them control them? please tell me i want an answer.i think now im going to move on. no im not sad. neither am i mad. am i going to start some poem? i dono. anyway..i've thought it through..i think there's much more to life than this or you.

this is for the world,
for the people that have gone through all the disasters..the sept 11..tsunami..hurricane katrina..sad to say i have a feeling there'll be more..all the people suffering from aids..all the children starving to death..all the people in poverty..yes, while i am typing this i am crying..i know that whatever God does he has a good reason for it..but must good reasons come out in bad ways? at night i think of the broken families..who have loved each other so much..and the love that they have is so real..what love is there today? now we take love for granted...the words "i love you" doesn't mean anything anymore...so how do we show that we really mean it? i do not know..how can there be so many lives being taken away just like that. at an instant. it's just so hard to understand. i don't believe that life's a bitch and then you die. i believe that we make our life a bitch. so we want to die. i think life's about making choice..true..it's cliche but it's the truth..when i watched the video we believe by good charlotte..it touched my heart..really..if i could make one wish..i'd wish for one day that there'll be no killings or attacks..no lives being taken away sinfully..

but it's impossible...

17th september 2005

the pain.

2005-09-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

i didn't go to school yesterday because i was, well, sick.

i dreamt about you yesterday..it would have been about the 7th time i've dreamt of you since 2004.the summary of the dream was that you told me your girlfriend was waiting for you downstairs..and you had to go..and i cried and cried that when i woke up..i really did cry..it really hurt..

did you think i could forget? the time i let you go..and you called me when i was walking home telling me " i know there's no way i can get you back..but i really have no chance of getting back with you right?" and i said "yes". i didn't know that one miserable 3 letter word could just turn into such torment of regret.

2 months after i lost you, you had someone else..and about a month after that someone else..you had someone else..and 2 months after that you are with someone else..how could a yes make you turn away so fast? and it seems like it's taking me forever...

since 2002 till now..3 years..nothing has been forgotten..do you know that now when i think of the way we met..was so amazing..yes...i still remember..genocide..and me, nicotine..do you think i'd forget the many ways you did just to let me know how much you loved me? waiting 5 hours below my block just to give me a rose..when i told you to shave your head and you did...remember we were eating at burger king? and we were eating fries..we somehow managed to take the same fry out of the many other fries? i remember everything you know..i think about it every night..or anytime..

now i know why people ask others do you think so and so is thinking about me..i've always wondered why bother to ask that question..and i suddenly realised..that when you really feel for that someone you really want to know if he or she is thinking about you.

you are someone that is supposed to remain in my heart..kept in my memory..i have no choice..feelings can't be controlled..but then..if i had a choice.i would choose not to stop thinking about you..till now..do you know the saying you don't know how much you love that person till you've lost him..well i have certainly felt that way..most definitely..

i was immature..stupid..foolish..you may think that i played with our relationship throughout that 1yr and 4 mths..but i didn't..all that happened was true feelings and it came frm my heart..but when i ended it..you may say..i was playing..which was true..i was so young..my mother said the reason i broke up was because i was "sian" of you..which was true too..foolish? stupid? yes..if i could..i could turn back time..but a friend told me..everything happens for a reason..and maybe things have to be this way..but i don't want it to..but what choice do i have..

how could i have been so foolish..and now. i've lost you..and it's okay because..when you love someone you want them to be happy..and i do want you to be happy. but please if you read this. don't take this as a sympathy..but just smth to remember..some things i hope you won't forget..i treasure every memory..since 2002 till now..it's been 3 yrs since i've loved you..but time doesn not matter..what matters is..i really do feel for you..

do you know that today..is the actual day that it's been 2 years since i've lost you?

13/09/2005

don't let me go.

2005-09-11T19:43:00.000+08:00

i just read 12 chapters of biology..fuck la..adam scott touched tanya..anyway i got his signature..i shouldn't have gone yesterday..so i could go today! anyway im gonna name my son scott..these are my all the future names from the children of nicole koh. they are ryan, rae, scott, emily, chelsea...can't think of anymore..
anyway,

Present.
it's hard to remember how it felt before,
now You found the love of Your life.
and after all the obstacles it good to see You now with someone else..
and it's such a miracle that You and Me are still good friends.

Jealousy.
But it's all in my head..
cause She's touching Your chest..
and You take off Her dress..
So I just can't look,
it's killing Me..
and taking control.

Regret.
But it's just the price I pay,
for lying to Myself..
I didn't mean it when I said I didn't love you so,
I should have held on tight I never should have let You go..
when I left, I lost a part of Me..
it's still so hard to believe.
and it's breaking My heart..

Conclusion.
I was stupid.
I was foolish.
I was immature.
because now My loss..
is Her gain..
but it's time to face the truth,
I might never be with You...

/2002 till forever...

sept 11 2005.

long time

2005-09-05T18:41:00.000+08:00

it's been a loonnnng while since i updated..seriously..i don't get how some of you can update like everyday..such happening lives..well anyway i didn't update not cos my life wasn't happening..it is kinda..well not really..haha ah forget it!

anyway the thing is the last time i update was like 20 aug?? now is like 05 sept? lol..hmm well let's see..im supposed to be studying now..it's my social studies paper and mt lc tmr..i really wanna do well! so yeah been studying hope i absorbed everything i need to absorb...today my chinese paper i didn't leave any parts blank!!!! lol believe it or not..i wrote 300 words for letter writing and 370 for compo! but i wrote damn crappy chinese..i just translated everything frm english to chinese..for the compo it was abt a grandma who lost her grandaughter while my frens and i were walking to my house...so we helped her look for it..and i found her following a cat..so that's why she was missing she was following the cat and wanted to play with her..yeah ard the housing area..haha i wrote that in english in like 3 lines and i wrote it in chinese in 370 words..now i really wonder what i scribbled in there..

my new fav song?? secret by maroon 5..it's the best i tell you..so so..well can say sexual but very nice!

hahha u noe what i've been wasting smses noe...cos i reallly wanna do smth so i listen to the radio stations and sms in..they read it most of the time la..lol..okay..i noe that in america billboard mariah carey's we belong together is first...then in power 98 behind these hazel eyes is first..and in 98.7 gwen stefani's cool is first..can u imagine..i knew all that by studying next to the radio yesterday lol..

i think im a super slow learner in maths..my tuition teacher has to be this specific to me.. "u write the big 3 first..." LOL..i wanted to laugh sia..oh and today i actually didn't noe i had paper 2 for chinese..i thot only compo and letter wiritng..like what was i thinking man...haha..

oh my goodness..scary things happened today lol..u noe i was just doing my usual shit ass thinking in the bus..on the way home..and then i was thinking imagine if i wanted to catch my bus and i fall..and guess what! it almost happened! my bus was there and i just got down 197 to get 228..so i stepped on the stupid oil at the bus parking lot! and i almost slipped but somehow or rather i had my balance..but it made my hair messy!! luckily i was the last one to get down! hahaha but i think surely people saw..oh haha i hope ashley didn't see cos he's someone i noe..lol..oh ya and i embarrassed myself again infront of ashley la i was alr at the door of the bus! dono why the bus driver didn't see me and this auntie..then he just drove off! i should have hit the door..i was that close..so yeah..

argh..study study again...well if u wanna noe what ive been doing frm 20aug to 05 sept..studying so i guess there isn't a need to go into detail i guess hmm.so..

bye then!!!

save me

2005-08-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

mm..ok. im back..im tired and in crash course..

i want more ppl in my bloggg...

okay. 3 countries in a month. im sick of SQ and airplanes.

byebye.

oddness

2005-07-31T11:57:00.000+08:00

i feel odd because..ehm..well it's hard to say here..

yeah the past two days was fun and all. i mean went for a surprise party and the girl was surprised lol. yeah and watched vcd and all..altho half the time we couldn't hear it because some people were talking! VERY LOUDLY!. grr.

ok then right on sat went to sentosa for the treasure hunt thing. very tiring but then..can say it was fun la..had supper and all..fr luke was there bleah. =\ kay yeah.

i feel like very hmm..i dono i feel very free..like odd at the same time. hai nvm. if u wanna noe lol just ask me. if u can. =p

save me

2005-07-27T21:32:00.000+08:00

im very tired. save me.....

im tired of everything....

bring me back to reality pls.

2005-07-25T19:57:00.000+08:00

put me in reality cause it's time to face the truth. i will never be with you.

is this infatuation or can this be real?
someone send me a sign what do i feel.
to have just one look at you,
puts a smile on my face.
to have one word with you,
brings a laughter out of me.
the criticisms don't hit me,
because i play along.
the fun we had,
can never be forgotten.
but one thing is for sure.
one day together,
is not possible to be.
and if i could live in my dreams,
my life would be a song,
with me and you.

how come it's so hard?

wow.

2005-07-22T17:18:00.000+08:00

i finally made my family proud. =))
and i noe that the lord and mother mary was with me guiding me all the way. =)

i won best nett and 3rd for team in brunei!

the trip was so fun i didn't feel like gg home! haha..really i think..i laughed alot. as in a hell lot. haha..and first it will be because of jerome but then quincy stares at me. and i laugh even more!!

man so many tournaments coming up. dono if i can take it..im so scared noe. i reli wanna play well again. =)

congrats to the SINGAPORE TEAM! haha..

bad days

2005-07-14T17:34:00.000+08:00

these are the bad days when everyone just seems so hostile. father is not talking to me, but i deserve it.

sometimes i don't understand things myself. i know that we can't play good golf all the time but when u really want to it just doesn't turn out right. i find that almost anything i do doesn't turn out right. it's just too bad. i mean..i know it's myself but..can't some things turn out right at least one thing..?

the parents that i have is what any kid could ask for..they make sure u have breakfast,lunch and dinner..they make sure u have a transport home..so that u return home safely..they take their time off frm work just to transport u to anywhere..they spend so much of their hard earned money on u..and still everything u do..just goes down the drain..and all their efforts goes down the drain as well..what i regret most is disrespecting parents..it's just so awful after i do it i feel like dying..i feel like i don't deserve to be in this world treating people like my parents like this..they just don't deserve it at all..

i'm 16 yrs old and im still not matured to think for myself and others..if i noe that..why don't i do it? it's just not understandable..maybe it follows the saying "action speaks louder than words". i wish i was smart and good in golf..if that's what i am...my parents wouldn't be in such a burden..it's not that i purposely don't wnt to play good golf..i mean who does that..but everytime i go on the course i tell myself..this is for my parents for bringing me here..this far..and then i screw up..maybe i shouldn't say anything at all..maybe i should just play..

i leave on the 16th of july till the 22nd of july..please wish me luck..i realy hope i can prove smth there..till then goodbye.

79

2005-07-11T19:41:00.000+08:00

79. im sorry for being the person that i am.

hmmm

2005-07-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

welll guess what
my mom told me that the priest during novena today said if u dun marry a kc girl it's a real waste or smth like tt hahaha..SO TRUE. lol oh well anyway..
went to sch..met friends. went to the beach..for nth! haiyo. but got to spend time with my frens la..most impt.
then went to church was a lil....... late. yeap little only..yeah then went to eat macs with my mom and sis.

now watching CSI. noe what's a snufff film? lol..

oh well..golf tmr and the day after and the day after..tired! i wana slp..

goonite! bye!

one of those days

2005-07-08T21:07:00.000+08:00

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyy............

just came back frm training..mmm..tired..meeting tmr at 715am! omg.
should i go training tmr..or...do smth else? i have to cancel my guitar lessons..hmm..

haha someone called me a slut..and told me to go to hell..haha...mmmm...im too tired to bother abt that haha..but whoever u are u seem angry..hope u feel better..haha...

my class is performing on BMW but im not gonna be there................hai..in brunei..but nvm..i'll force my form teacher to record it for me..haha...

supposed to be having a conference now..but dono what happened..shall question ard..

till then..TURAH.

neeewww skiin

2005-07-07T20:52:00.000+08:00

NEW SKIN.....I THINK IM GONNA KEEP THIS ONE FOR A LOONG TIME..COS IT'S SO NICE..MMMM..IM SUPER HUNGRY..

TYPING IN CAPS IS SOO FUN..AND IM GONNA EAT..I DONO WHAT BUT I AM..

TMR IS FRIDAY! WELL NO BIG DEAL ACTUALLY LIKE ANY OTHER DAY..

LIKE MY BLOG? TAG ME TO TELL ME LAH..DON'T SHY SHY..

=p

2005-07-03T00:43:00.000+08:00

You scored as Katie Holmes. Just like this former Dawson's Creek star, you have a look of innocence and you are very natural. You dont wear much make up, but youre a natural beauty(even if u dont think you are).You are Awesome!

Katie Holmes

92%

Beyonce Knowles

75%

Jennifer Lopez

67%

Ashanti

67%

Ashlee Simpson

50%

Courtney Cox-Arquette

42%

Paris Hilton

33%

Lindsay Lohan

Pamela Anderson

Mischa Barton

Which Hott Celebrity are you most like?( A CHOICE OF 10 Hotties!!)
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2005-07-02T23:39:00.000+08:00

do you know that i took a what kind of girl are you test and these are the results!

81%-atheletic tomboy!
69%-hippy
44%-preppy girl
38%-popular bitch =( lol
25%-slut =((( eeeee.
19%-goth =\ lol
13%-nerd lol
0%-loser.......

haha what do you think??! agree??

haha awww so sad..the csi guy had to say gdbye to the girl he reli liked who is the killer...hmm..i hope it never happens to me..!

haha bye!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2005-07-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

You scored as Phoebe. You're Phoebe. You come across as a bit weird and ditzy but you're fun loving.

Phoebe

65%

Joey

55%

Chandler

45%

Monica

45%

Rachel

40%

Ross

25%

Which Friend are you?
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the oh so great EMDD!

2005-07-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

ah well..as usual..our school was stunning! lol..seriously it was..haha the velveteen rabbit simply adorable..

tiring..i sold 5 cookbooks out of 10! waddya think of that???
haha and actually big thanks to sri..joshua b..cos u noe..they bought it..and u noe they don't cook so they were reli nice to buy it..then..saw alot of friends!! teri was wearing a skirt!!!!!!! then saw mr siow..yes..he taught me a new handshake..haha so fun..but u noe of all the days to see my friends they had to see me in a white uniform..tie..cod shoes..stockings..and blazer..haiyoh..

anyway! after i got home and took out my stockings i felt FREEDOM!.

EMDD

2005-06-30T18:28:00.000+08:00

im ushering...matinee and night..sooo yeah white u..blazer..stockings..cod shoes..eee...hai..oh well..haha i get to watch 2 shows for free..haha..kay..hope they do well today...

gonna change my skin..gdbye

the day you hated me

2005-06-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

hate me please do..i deserve it..but i understand how i feel and i hope you feel the same too..

didn't do homework day!

2005-06-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

i was supposed to do my homework today..butttt i didn't..soooo yeah..thenn hell is starting on monday... im dead..

anyway tmr is ili's chalet and i get to like stay over because! i have a game on sunday at 1209 haha so nice..lucky lucky..haha..okayy well..im damn bored..i wanna talk to someone... =)

seriously anybody!! call me lahHh!

fluuuu

2005-06-20T21:36:00.000+08:00

oh well what do you noe. i have flu..well i dono..maybe im not drinking enough water cos..i dono! well anyway in the morning i sneezed like more than 10 times! and i just sneezed twice..

well i watched episodes 1-12 of CSI season 1! it's so cool really they're like my inspiration to do better in science..i really wanna be like them..but i wouldn't noe if i can take it..

my mom's cooking now! eatin home-cooked food..yay...rice...mmmmm...i miss it..

playing jurong ladies league tmr wish me luck..as in really! i need luck.

hey how come...most people call their nicknames by the beginning of their names?? i mean like my name's nicole..and some people call me nic..but y not ole.?

weird.
byebye!

daddy day.

2005-06-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm im fulll................

haha ate so much..and i want abs..oh gosh..dream on nicole..haha

anyway CSI is so freaking cool..they're like my motivation to excel in my goal..which is forensics actually..or to be a crime scene investigator..but im not like smart?? so yeah..must be damn good in science and all la..which i reli suck in..maybe i'll stay back with ms lau in sch or smth..

bought for our dad a harmonica..yeap he does play it..quite well actually...yeahh..

oh well what else? nothing else..it's difficult to update when ur life is so BORING.

PS: feel good by gorrilaz rocks! reli makes u grroooovve...

you're not what im looking for.

2005-06-18T13:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday watched..BATMAN BEGINS! with my sis and her bf..and mark and ken..and you noe before the movie my sis and i went to the loo then when we were walking back to them..i saw them and i thought to myself..WOW they're super tall...they're all like 1.80 and above! and im only like 1.55! wth..anyway! haha..they're super hilarious i tell u..thruout the whole...movie they were like fighting to see who is batman..then mark was telling ken..he's alfred and all..and yeahh then at the end of the show..they talked abt the joker..so mark and ken told each other..how come at the end of the show then u come out?? lol haha funny..okay anyway yeahh i talked to rancell and it's not good..actually i didn't even talk to him..i think i left him hanging in the air..which yes is the wrong thing to do..but i reli had to go..so..i hope he understands..and i hope the next time i talk to him..i will not hesistate to say whatever i wanna say..

goodbye!